Current Mood: Complacent

Sunday morning. And I don’t have to get up early tomorrow either. I think the last long weekend we had off work was for New Year’s day. I’m definitely up for the time off!

I guess there’s not alot going on here… Heather is in Baltimore for an extended visit, getting used to the idea of living there and taking it easy after closing out her semester at Moraine Park. I think they’re planning on moving her out there some time in early July. That will take some getting used to for me, but at least this time around I have my kitties. Also, Greggory is here now and that in itself keeps me quite distracted.

Brian is discovering the wonders of married life. Financial obligations, household duties, trying to inspire his partner to be more responsible, etc. etc. I know it’s a rough time for any newly married couple, and I really hope all works out for him. Being the mom, my instincts tell me to step in and take over, but this is where I really have to draw the line. It’s a mental struggle for me.

My part-time job will be ending soon. It didn’t last very long, and they’re cutting my hours because they are hiring another full-time body to work in Client Support. *sigh* Not sure what I gonna do about that yet. I guess time will tell. I was hoping this part-time work would help me get ahead enough to finally get another van. That’s looking like a distant dream again. (Yes I’m still without a van.) Part of me is relieved, strangely enough. It’s taking its toll on me, getting up at 5am every day to follow up on emails and schedule teleconferences. But I think a much bigger part of me is again scared of the future.

The physical situation, which I totally avoid thinking about: getting in and out of the Buick reminds me every time how achy and creaky I’m becoming with age. My knees constantly ache, and the doctor says it’s the ‘bursa’ in my hip that hurts so much. I stopped taking the anti-depressant, and started on Ambien to help with the sleep issues. I feel a lot more alert during the day now, but wonder how long I can take Ambien over the long-haul. Well, for now at least, I’m not dozing off at work anymore. My jaw is doing something really weird, and I wonder if there’s something going on in there or if it’s just stress I’m feeling post-Effexor. Swollen glands, constant stabby pain and excess salivation. Just weird. One-sided, too; the right side don’t hurt.

Ok enough of that. It’s depressing.

Well I’m going to celebrate Memorial Day by cooking something on the grill. Not sure what yet, but I have a lot of ideas. I’m also going to bake some cookies later today or tomorrow, and want to bake some orange pecan scones for breakfast this morning. Mary Lee always used to call it ‘therapy’ cooking. She is right.

Have a good long weekend!