Current Mood: Cyincal & Groggy

Sorry folks… I’ve just been feeling uninspired and frustrated lately. Work hard, still get nowhere. Anyway, here’s some updates:

Brian got married! I don’t remember the exact date because he didn’t invite me. Oh well. What I gonna do. Her name is Amanda Rose, and I met her once. She seemed nice enough. Brian is ga-ga about her and insists this is the REAL thing. I wish them lots of luck, and hope they stay happy for years and years to come.

Heather quit her job at the Veterinary Referral Clinic. She loved the work but hated the people she had to work for. She’s wrapping up her last few weeks at school, and considering moving to Baltimore this summer. We’ll see how things go. I sorta hoped she’d finish up the 2-year program and get her degree. Well, she has lots of time, and I know how much she and Justin want to be together.

Greggory has landed in Hartford. He set up a fairly comfy living space out in the garage. That works out good, I still have my own space in my room and stuff. He started looking for a job, but that sorta went nowhere. He is reluctant to talk about any future plans with me. *sigh*

As of 4/9/08, I am officially divorced. Yes, it was a long time coming, and now it’s over. I guess I feel good about it… it’s just sorta hard to think about a divorce being a good thing. S’ok though, it works out better for me this way.

As of 4/22, I am working part-time hours at api. This is on top of my regular 40-hour-workweek. I just need the money real bad. It ain’t easy putting in 60-65 hours a week. I’m constantly tired and that’s probably to blame for my frustrated, uninspired mood lately.

Got my meds adjusted and started taking a sleeping pill. So now I don’t fall asleep at work anymore. Yay!! It made me so sick to my stomach for the first week I almost abandoned it. But now it’s good, and I feel a lot more alert during the days. I’ve tapered off the antidepressant, too. I think I can live without it right now. We’ll see what the short cold cloudy days of winter bring when they get here.

We went out to Benihana for dinner tonight. That was nice! We get a dinner voucher from api for each anniversary. So this year we found a Japanese steak house to go to. Here’s a picture of the onion volcano:

That was such a great dinner too. Wish I could afford to do that more often.

Anyway it’s nearly 10pm and I have to get up at 5am to do some work before I go to work. The part-time stuff is all clerical, and nice too because I can do it all from the comfort of my bed or my recliner or anywhere else here at home. Or on the road. (I’m going to Scottsboro Alabama in a few weeks) Oh, yeah, forgot to mention my next client may very well be Meriter in Madison, WI. That’ll be nice, I won’t have to hassle with the airlines. Just drive there, and drive back again when the training visit is over.

Ok nuff said, time to catch some zzzzz’s. Party on…

Posted: May 4th, 2008 under Photographs, Other Stuff.
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Current Mood: Cranky

It dawned on me yesterday that I haven’t really posted much since I heard that Brian was shipping out to Afghanistan. DOH!! My bad!

As it turns out, Brian did not go to Afghanistan after all. Now he says he will probably be sent to Iraq around the end of the year or beginning of ‘09. I keep saying that maybe things will have calmed down by the time his first deployment happens. But you know… I’m not holding my breath.

Brian is busy making plans to marry a girl named Amanda. While it doesn’t thrill me - the lightning-speed he’s moving at, to get married - he insists it’s what he wants to do. So only time will tell if it’s right or not.

Heather is in Baltimore and should be heading home tonight. She’s still going to school, still working as a vet tech intern, still making plans to marry Justin in a year or so.

Seems the house at 3242 has been emptied directly into a garbage dump. Even Holo, my sweet lil silky, was euthanized. I did NOT want that to happen but also wasn’t in a position to ship him out here by myself. Seemed like nobody at 3242 wanted to help get him shipped. It was just easier to kill him. *sigh* Small comfort knowing he was old and had bad teeth… I asked Beth twice if I came to Hawaii, would I be welcome? She totally avoided answering that question. I wonder what’s up with that. Perhaps the estate is being plundered while nobody’s watching. Who knows. One thing’s for sure: this is NOT the Beth that I thought I knew.

Life is hectic, depressing, expensive, difficult right now. That’s probably why I am not posting much. It’s too easy to end up in a never-ending whine. So I’ll wrap this up now before I wreck the rest of my evening.

buh bye

Posted: March 24th, 2008 under Gripes.
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C’mon, Mother Nature! Let Spring happen! Gawd I’m soooo tired of the snow. The Milwaukee area hasn’t had this much snow since the late 1800’s. West Allis reported 13+ inches at 3pm. Heavy snow is currently falling, and I think Hartford is up to about 10 inches.

It’s heavy, sloppy, wet snow. I guess I should be thankful I don’t have to shovel a driveway or sidewalk.

Snow, snow, go away!

Posted: March 21st, 2008 under Gripes.
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Current Mood: OK

A new addition to Chemistry’s Periodic Table

Research has led to the discovery of the heaviest element
yet known to science. The new element, Governmentium
(Gv), has one neutron, 25 assistant neutrons, 88 deputy
neutrons, and 198 assistant deputy neutrons, giving it an
atomic mass of 312.

These 312 particles are held together by forces called
morons, which are surrounded by vast quantities of
lepton-like particles called peons. Since Governmentium
has no electrons, it is inert; however, it can be detected,
because it impedes every action with which it comes into
contact.

A minute amount of Governmentium can cause a reaction
that would normally take less than a second to take from
four days to four years to complete.Governmentium has a
normal half-life of 2-6 years; it does not decay, but
instead undergoes a reorganization in which a portion of
the assistant neutrons and deputy neutrons exchange
places.

In fact, Governmentium’s mass will actually increase over
time, since each reorganization will cause more morons to
become neutrons, forming isodopes. This characteristic of
moron promotion leads some scientists to believe that
Governmentium is formed whenever morons reach a critical
concentration. This hypothetical quantity is referred to as
critical morass.

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Posted: March 12th, 2008 under Other Stuff.
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From the folks at Cute Overload:

Posted: March 1st, 2008 under Other Stuff.
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When you look over your shoulder
And you see the light that you have left behind
When you think it over, do you ever wonder
What it is that holds your life so close to mine

You love the thunder and you love the rain
What you see revealed within the anger is worth the pain
And before the lightning fades and you surrender
You’ve got a second to look at the dark side of a man

You love the thunder, you love the rain
You know your hunger, oo, like you know your name
I know you wonder how you ever came
To be a woman in love with a man in search of the flame

Draw the shades and light the fire
For the night, it holds you and it calls your name
And just like your lover knows your desire
And the crazy longing that time will never tame

You love the thunder, oo, you love the rain
You know your hunger, oo, like you know your name
I got your number, if its still the same
And you can dream, but you can never go back the way you came

Posted: February 10th, 2008 under Other Stuff.
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Current Mood: Annoyed & Listless & Pensive & Scared

US Sending Troops to Afghanistan

Brian turns 21 today. In about a month, he will be in Afghanistan for a 7-month deployment. *sigh*

That’s just the latest news in my life, which seems to be spiraling downward and out of control for the beginning of 2008. My van is a total loss; the insurance company is not able to give me enough money to pay off the loan because the value of my van falls $1000 short; my GB died; rental cars have sucked every livin penny out of me (and maybe even some dead ones); I don’t have money to pay bills so I had to get a loan from work…

Yeah I guess this is just a whine bitch gripe post. Things just seem to keep getting crazier and more depressing lately. I am thankful for the job though - it takes my mind off of things, and offers me challenges and successes which I value. Even the small successes. Also, api has a very good loan program for employees. At least by Monday I’ll have a few bucks again and can pay my bills.

Greggory will probably be landing here when everybody vacates 3242. I still can’t believe GB is gone… I keep expecting those 808- phone calls to be from him… hear his voice say ‘oh, Sharon!’. That is what he said every time I answered the phone.

Well, life goes on, and nothing is certain except death and taxes, eh?

I’m sure in a month or so I’ll feel better.

Oh, I never did post a link to the pictures I took in Georgetown, did I? Well, here goes:

Views from the Hampton Inn on the Marina
Sunset, and views from the boardwalk in Georgetown, SC

It was a good trip, but very exhausting because I did not have my wheelchair. It was broke. I should be getting it back next week. Just in time for my next trip to Georgetown. I wonder if I’ll be able to spend some time with Brian down there before he leaves the country…

Maybe next time I’m typing here, I’ll be in a better mood.

Posted: January 18th, 2008 under Gripes.
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Current Mood: Melancholy

I’ve been thinking a lot about GB this past week. I still can’t believe he’s gone… I knew this day would come; but maybe selfishly, thought it would be years away. I know how much he wanted to be with Mary Lee again. Perhaps, now he is.

It’s funny how when a person is living, you can remember the bad times so clearly. Although I still feel the ’sting’ of some of the bad times, they’re becoming cloudy and diminished as I think of the man I grew to know and love over the past 28+ years. Gene had a kind and generous heart, depsite the fact that he could be so darn frugal! One of his signature lines said “Never look down on another man, unless you are helping him up.” I think that sums it up.

Over the years, Gene has unquestioningly helped me through some very tough times in my life, like the BIG decision I made in late 2001 to relocate to Wisconsin. I remember when he was driving with me and the kids as we made our journey across the US, from California to Wisconsin. He talked and talked! We talked about everything under the sun, and then some. I always knew he deeply loved Mary Lee, but these conversations left me with a greater understanding of his love and admiration for a woman he said was ‘one of the two FINEST women he ever knew!’ (The other woman was his mother.)

After Mary Lee passed away, Gene mourned and grieved for years. Despite his profound grief, he still kept up his frugal, caring, and yes, generous ways. He also kept the B&B business going. (He considered it to be Mary Lee’s ‘baby’!) He kept up his divorce legal practice. He walked the dogs, played beach volleyball for a time, stayed active in his church, and in keeping with the pattern of his life, worked to change the world around him for the better. He was passionate in his beliefs and his actions always reflected this.

My head is swimming with fond memories and my tears are falling as I type this. Gene Bridges is a person whom I will ALWAYS remember as my Hawaii dad. He leaves behind a large extended family, from Hawaii to Germany and back again. I know I can speak for all of us when I say that we are greatly saddened by his leaving; but at the same time, thankful that he is again with his beloved Mary Lee, and is no longer feeling the physical and emotional pain of the past few years.

It’s so hard to write things as a final ‘testament’ or ’statement’ or whatever, about people I love and respect. I feel like the impact GB had in my life deserves a 12-page memorial. I will keep this to a few paragraphs though, and end by saying I love GB and miss hearing his voice. I feel he is at peace now, and all is well in his world.

Posted: January 12th, 2008 under Other Stuff.
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Current Mood: Depressed & Drunk

Losses, that is.

My laptop died Thursday morning. Which, I guess compared to my van, isn’t as big a loss. But then,

Thursday afternoon, somewhere between noon and 1pm, Gene Bridges passed away while sitting in his wheelchair.

GB is my Hawaii-dad. This is a huge loss. While he has been ill for some time, and his health took a drastic turn for the worse in the past month, it still doesn’t prepare me for the inevitable.

I have a lot of things I want to say about GB. Right now, I’m still trying to grasp the reality that my Hawaii-family-era seems to be coming to an end.

Another sun sets, and Mary Lee and Gene are again together forever.

Posted: January 5th, 2008 under News.
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Current Mood: Depressed

So it’s official. I just heard from the insurance estimator. My van is ‘a total loss’. SIGH

I guess now it’s up to me to duke it out with the insurance companies (mine and hers) to get reimbursed for more than just the blue book value of my van. I have to get money for the rental car, a new lift, and a downpayment on a new van.

I wonder how long this will take…

Posted: December 28th, 2007 under Gripes.
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